What Happens in Cali
The past few weeks have proven to be quite interesting. Aside from lots of changes going on at work, and even more in my personal life, it seems that one of two things is happening in tandem:
– Either everyone else is having life-shifting moments/events too
– I’m starting to look at the world through different eyes
What has been the most difficult task for me with all of this, is distinguishing between the two, and understanding my place and role in it. It’s an eye opener for me.
I looked at myself in the mirror a few weeks back, and realized that I wasn’t happy with myself. I needed to change me. After 9.5 years, I ended a relationship to allow for just that … for both of us. I needed it more than I realized. It was a tough pill to swallow, but a necessary one nonetheless.
As time went on the past few weeks, I came to an understanding that both of those things were happening. Some for the good, some not so much. So, where will I end up? I’m not sure … but for the first time in my life, I feel as though I have ultimate control over my direction in life. I get to make the decisions. I get to make mistakes.
I want to make mistakes. I want to learn.
I’ve been hearing a lot over the last few months that I can’t be afraid to fail, as long as I learn from it. As long as I get something out of it. I’m ready to fail. What’s the saying in a dev group? Fail fast, fail often.
Does that work?
Do you have ways to cope? To learn from your mistakes and failures, and to iterate on your successes? I’d love to hear them.
In the meantime, it’s time to have some fun. Enjoy life. And, enjoy discovering me (again).